it's 1.48am and im all alone with the computer the fan and the lights everyone else's sleeping i just dont feel like sleeping .dont ask me why.maybe because im always sleeping .
2more papers to go and im free,at least i thought so.my mum (& i)wnats me to go to maris stella.i dont know why but part of me really wants to go but part of me doesn't. so im gonna take the placement test to enter maris stella so after exams i might still need to study. but i don't think that ill even make the requirements at least 70% for all the subjects and thats like WOW i dont know if i can make ,not that im like looking down on myself ar being negative but everyone justs seems to be expecting me to get into maris stella and they are giving rewards which i really want ,& i dont know thats a good thing .yeah so do pray for me that ill get in.now im very stressed so much expectations i really do hope that i will lift up to those expections adn not let my parents down again i have been letting them down forever so far.
just trust in the LORD ,i do hope i can and that He will help me through
im just so damn tired ,tired of everything ,how i wish i have someone to really talk 'bout how i feel ,not talk talk but to hear me out and i really wish it would be HER.